The Quantum Physics Of Transition Continue With No End In Sight

I have written so many posts about my 'Transitioned State' since 'officially' ending working full-time that it feels like I am a film studio milking some franchise for every last penny (Oops...no more pennies) every last nickel of profit no matter how old and repetitive the material gets. 

An ongoing theme has been how much do I want to be doing the work I used to do versus doing something else. Well the something else has been travel. But the cost of travel limited how much of it could be done and required that some work be included to pay for it. So going over my Transition  tagged posts, there is this constant yo-yo between saying I don't want to work, to getting reinvigorated by work, to not wanting to work, and back and forth. 

Looking at my early 2024 posts, I claimed to have recognized that this yo-yo was just the steady state and I would accept it. 

That seemed to be fine until the return from this latest trip. 

This time the desire to get back into the work swing of things has been way, way harder than previously. My getting sick right after getting back and only just now, almost 3 weeks later, starting to feel normal again has been a significant part of it . So there certainly has been a lack of energy from that. 

But there seems to be other factors at play. 

To be sure of my memory, (which at my current age seems to be completely inaccurate), I went back over transition posts I've made over the last couple of years. Talk about memory lapse! Go back to the first part of this year and I am absolutely oozing with excitement over various business things I was doing. I'm talking about new opportunities, and revival of old ones. So what the heck has happened over the last 7/8 months?

Well, I'd say when the year started, we were not sure at all that we'd be able to traveling. The blood clot thing, our short trip to Sweden that went bad with breaking Wife's foot. I think in the absence of travel, there was a feeling 'well I may as well get more active with work."

Next, there had been an interest from someone close to me about taking over my practice. We had a lot of conversations. If someone was going to take it over, there needed to be an actual practice to take over. 

Third, we were in the middle of the remodel that was sucking up a lot of cash. Plenty of incentive to keep working there. 

So what has changed since we came back?

First, we did travel! And it was as good as it ever was, and now, with time staring at us, the desire to travel is even greater.

Second, being gone for almost two months, I find all those business things I was excited about, they are pretty much dead in the water. Not that they couldn't be revived. But you can't just disappear for months at a time and have initiatives keep moving. It takes ongoing effort. So if I go put in that effort now, what's going to happen. In 3 months I will be leaving again for two months and it will all relapse. So why put in the effort in the first place?

Third, we are finding since the way we travel has changed with age, we can travel spending much less money. This means there is a lot less pressure to need to work. 

But, offsetting these things are others such as:

I tend to need something to do with purpose in my life, hence why I have always taught, coached, mentored, etc. 

Then there is the need for a certain amount of meaningful inter-personal connection. That has almost exclusively come from work over the decades. 

Finally, there are recent events associated with Theodora and Rotary Club to End Human Trafficking that are putting that into a whole new light. (Will do a separate post on those). Would that fill the 'purpose' need? 

Now add to the mix that Wife had elective surgery to repair arthritic damage to her thumb and doesn't have use of her right hand for a few weeks. That means a lot of time and energy to assist her. 

Factor all this in and you have a recipe for much introspection and not a lot of clarity. 

(To Be Continued)